I disclosed more then I ever should have to him. He taught me that somethings are better left to myself. I do share with you guys shit I can NOT share with him because it turns into a fucking argument. Fortunately I could give a shit what anyone else thinks of me & unfortunately his opinion has mattered so much that I've let it change me & I walk on eggshells constantly.
Hey, to me, it seems you're quite well informed on these matters aye.
Sincerely, imo, you've made remarkable progress figuring this stuff out.
#PSA; *Cliffs:- much wordy, brain make hurty, ya'll know the drill, go-on now gitt!
•Anyways, so i reckon you'd be capable of working out the highlight in your quoted post of that particular sentence,...without further explanation.
•i know the intensely challenging—uniquely pervasive (*narc) type of mindfucking,...and like you've pointed out in another post along the lines of:-
•those who've not Truly endured the crushing depths of a "narcs" uninhibited "dysfunctionality", simply do not Truly know, regardless whether somewhat aware or highly "educated"/"qualified".
•[Consider this(*attempted) example]
•36 years, i've been interested in all things military,...like hearty af into it.
•Read/watched/played hundreds, maybe thousands of books/movies/docs and games, etcetera.
•
Even bought a 2nd 'Band of Brothers' DVD set after wearing the disc's out.
When it comes to 'RTS' type strategy & tactics/management wargames, i generally kick ass.
•However, the fact is:- i have never-ever experienced war first hand.
•Were i so retarded to suggest, or attempt otherwise actions,...
•(*whether arising of ignorance &/or arrogance)
•...simply due to some degree of indirectly acquired conceptual knowledge,...
•...to presume so, would be no less than some kinda freakish radioactive mutant twerpletry!
•(*In other words:- straight fuckin falsehood, not the True Reality!)
•Sure i may beat an experienced soldier at a 1v1 digital war game fiction, i.e;- of the 'Command & Conquer' sorta style.
•(*
unless they're also hardcore into that shit too, then it's game on bitch!)
•i expect that same soldier would expeditiously annihilate me in 1v1 real world combat.
•Though a simplistic comparison, loosely similar for those who begin "
waking" to the realization of being trapped within a "narcs"
nightmarish hellscape experience.
•They are generally
completely "
isolated" by such time—yet always—"
constantly surrounded"—"trapped" without reprieve.
•Simultaneously, they will also be dealing with an established "Smear Campaign"(*aka:- the pubic/communal narrative), which they're just beginning to realize having had unwittingly played along with.
•A Sisyphean challenge faces those seeking to successfully extricate ones-self.
•The individual will already be severely disoriented(*"Brain Fog") and dangerously exhausted:-
•physically
•emotionally
•psychologically
•Spiritually
It is a tragic—ever shifting and difficult to discern—noncorporeal cage of cruelty & ceaseless torment, for the subject.
The objective observer merely witnesses certain physically perceptible manifestations of notably dysfunctional, maladaptive behavioural patterns, thus inevitably forming their own subjective conceptions.
*These are not Reality based conceptions, no matter how one cleverly rationalizes such.
Particularly detrimental challenges arise for the more comfortably institutionalized, and the "qualified"-"experts" due to indoctrinated distortions "bending minds" to accommodate defined "Mainstream "Psychological" narratives, as laid out in the establishments scriptures, i.e; DSM-5TR, ICD-11.
*Note clarification:- for attempting simplification, am intentionally using starkly contrasting dichotomous descriptions as opposed to merely unconscious "black or white thinking.
•
It's either that or perhaps instead several thread pages describing a vast spectrum of seemingly complex shit.
•[*not that complex in reality, it's designed to appear as if so.]
[*Am happy to share my subj experiences whenever able, if you'd like a bit of background info, i would have recommended checkin out Quora coz i was a prolific contributor and predominantly regarding this narcissistic shite—til the lovely censorship fairies rocked up.]
•The motivation for my eagerness to yabber on about this subject and in such a uniquely spastic manner, might possibly seem of common ignorance &/or arrogance, but it's more like developing assertiveness mixed with occasional overloads of some remaining-as yet uncontained aggression.
i am as fallible as any other.
•i "speak" from experience, though the choice of words may be inadequate/or excessive &/or the observer comprehension, &/or attention may perhaps be variably insufficient,...or,...
...i just be too fuckin chonked.
•i mean well, wholly altruistic yet blunt af coz this artificially imposed fuckin veil of perpetuated deception has simply gone on far too long!
Sorry
@MrsTiffy77 for this spontaneous ranty stoner post.
...coz admittedly, i am a rather hardcore "psychonaut", as the likes of Terrence McKenna.
*might seem irresponsible to have let them drive off in that state, and it was.
