#FYI: Ain't gonna spoiler this post, it's kinda spontaneous and maybe a bit raw/from the heart.
"So have no fear of them; for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. What I tell you in the dark, utter in the light; and what you hear whispered, proclaim upon the housetops. And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul; rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell."
This may be slightly shocking, perhaps also gives a little insight as to why I probably seem like a really fuckin socially retarded muppet.
Never been married or had kids, would love too though.
#Family...and traits.
*Dad: went to get a pack of ciggys 30y ago, should be back any minute now.
Jks, he ditched, has another fam.
*Mom: chronic alcoholic+junkie +narc/psycho.(vicious af!)
*Me: confused scapegoat til realizing in my mid twenties that these people are not right.
I pulled a dad, "went to get ciggys few years ago". Ain't planning on seeing 3 of them ever again.
*Bro 1: just like mom, slightly worse.(unpredictable &
extremely dangerous/violent)
*Bro 2: the passive aggressive version of bro 1.(the smiling embodiment of deception/ manipulation, extortion.)
*Bro 3: nothing like the above.
Pretty sure if I wasn't around, he'd have been the scapegoat.
Glad he escaped that prolonged torment.
He is a really great guy.
Doesn't touch drugs 'n' shit, well educated, stand up young man. Qualified electrician by 18-19yo, demo derby driver/mechanic, he's 25rn and last I heard he'd bought a 6th property without any financial assistance.
I don't know what the story is regarding his specific electrical expertise coz he hasn't revealed deets about why he gets flown to random countries for work, NDA possibly but I really just do not know.
Now, this I reckon ya'll might think I'm bullshitting about. Mom+Bro1 & 2 have full on attempted to murder my dumbass on multiple occasions.
Mom actually swerved into an oncoming truck when we were all under 8yo,...left us with lifelong injuries and I'm still occasionally picking glass outta my face.
Shortly before I moved across country and ditched them.
I demanded to know why these people felt justified/entitled to use me like a fuckin trash can, steal my property, stab me, smash my skull in, etc....
...they each laughed in their crooked way about it, stating similar sentiments of it being their fuckin right/entitlement yadda yadda loser,...mom said she tried to trade me for crack when I was in my early teens,... and reckons she would've pulled it off if I'd been a female.
That, was, really, fkn painful to learn.
Even worse, she was clearly still pissed about failing to actually do it.
I have forgiven them, they knew not what they did.
Though I ain't letting them near me or anyone I may come to care about in future.
So, yeah,...family traits.
There ya have it folks.
Maybe this will explain why I've tended to get a bit overly hostile towards some posters like,.. RubeCreaper, when I've noticed demonstrations of certain manipulative narcissistic behaviours.
I am trying to learn not to react so intensely, it is quite difficult doing this without any support irl,...and learning all this stuff on the fly.
Dunno, but I think TFSF has sorta become like a substitute family in a sense.
Regardless whether some can't stand my dumbshit, I still value these people,.. OfficerCooper, Hoosier, AC2021, and probably others I'm unaware of, perhaps avoiding me like a plague, lol.
Everyone on TFSF, has had a great deal of positive influence on me in these past ~6 months.
Means more than I can find the words to express.
I'll never forget ya'z.
Sorry I'm kinda fuckin emotional rn, in a positive sense. Bit like catharsis.
Thanks Guys 'n' Gals
Wife will have about 3 but at least she puts them in a napkin. Still kind of gross.
...maybe, have ya'z been mates with two people who are randomly hostile towards each other?
