Also feel that way.
I'll see if I can find what I had. Outside of just straight distrust for a lot of what the medical community did during COVID, I was looking up was what the vaccine itself was preventing. Polio, for example. There are few cases of paralytic polio. Polio has had many botches vaccines over the years, lots of vaccine induced Polio right now. Polio is higher in countries that don't have as much water treatment as we do here in the US because it's transferred via contaminated feces. I'm sure that the vaccines play a part in that as well but that's a very high level overview. This is pretty much all from memory so I may be missing something.
Our pediatrician was willing to work with us on scheduling them as we were comfortable which was nice.
You are correct that it's hard to find information going against the vaccines. You really have to piecemeal lots of different things together.