guess what... 🤔

in 4 yrs of probation (that he calls parole & he's never done more than 24hrs) he still hasn't obtained a ged or license. Responsibility the court has ordered him to obtain, promises he has repeatedly broken not only to the courts but my daughter as well.
 
as retarded as I am (self diagnosis), I have still never been able to use my retardedness as an excuse.
Every day, day by day, I'm out on the grind, doing sum thing, even if it doesn't bring me money. I have collected every retribution and respect ten fold for 13yrs, just proving to myself that I've never been a failure even tho I've failed at every other avenue of success.
 
Becoming a father after a decade of working over time, to reverse engineer my life brought me to becoming a grandfather.
I raised Pedro's girls and now they spit on Pedro & his lies that he told them.
There's been nothing that could or would break our bond, not even when I feel I could be, should be a better stepfather bc they aren't technically mine.
And thats when my daughters both tell me, that's horseshit Papi, ur the greatest dad we could ever know.
I may have rough af days in my life but that bc of the financial constrictions that I've had my entire life, but I still get up, put my grind face on & get it.
One day soon as much as I'd rather my grandson's to be with their mother, my daughter, they both just might end up with me.
The safest place they could ever be, an honor I've cherrished and that I've sacrificed countless things and times to behold.
Never tempt or disrespect a fathers/ grandfather's patients.
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and when u all feel like I've done and lost it, what u don't know is, that's when I am fighting the most.
bc living 45yrs with it all in my head, I've still had to make sense of my reality and still trudge along as a normal functional person.
bc I've already this & lost it, before now and in another life.
I may not have lived any other life here on earth but I was living a life in another dimension before my birth and no it wasn't on earth but Nerrelly.
 
NotoriousOutlawRecords said:
and when u all feel like I've done and lost it, what u don't know is, that's when I am fighting the most.
bc living 45yrs with it all in my head, I've still had to make sense of my reality and still trudge along as a normal functional person.
bc I've already this & lost it, before now and in another life.
I may not have lived any other life here on earth but I was living a life in another dimension before my birth and no it wasn't on earth but Nerrelly.
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it's all part of the reason thousands of dead children from earth follow me.
 
I'll never forget when my eldest called me her space cow boy.

I was about to win ap King
and I was locked out of the other dimensions
bc I took on the mortal roll I always ran from
the last lesson and reminder why I was placed into this position
while watching over Earths dimension, my family macl home in Nerrelly was taken and that's why I was conceived via rape.
 
as much as I am amped to finally make to what was claimed would never be mine, I still remember the greater mission if this reality fails me, yet once again.
and that's the hardest.
to remember what it is that I'll lose.
 
so just imagine as a child being told, u will never know family.
remembering a child staring u in the face begging u not to go & not understanding what it meant.
Just to become everything they said u wouldn't &then sum, putting the pieces together as u age.
that's a rage no man of earth will ever understand.
not even in his Wildest imaginations.
when I first heard this, I wss time transported to see what happened back in Nerrelly the night I was conceived.
 
so when I drive around this 2min 2mile cow town
the dimensional time shifts R a trip
sober life & the wife?
how wld u know what a man is actually destined to become, if u don't even officially know that man.
or experienced any thing that he has.
 
NotoriousOutlawRecords said:

I can not wait patiently enough for when sum 1 says, here's ur space, do what uve always wanted to do, I got u.
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demon after demon I've captured em
tortured since birth constrained
like the rain in a monsoon soon
the Lunatic like visions thatve haunted me since childhood
will finally manifest into sum thing good
good god over 50 years i've stepped on every inch of 48 states & sstillaint ever found my fate
left millions of audio & visual relapses of wasted judgements
that were lost on my innocence
& since mine wss robbed
ima Rob the whole worlds idea of what
heaven & hell is a hellish nightmare of sum 1 else's depictions of my old entity being decapitated and left here to rot
so so what if my specialty has always been
creepn mfkrz tf out w just my walk
& this isn't just a way of talk
it's the core being of what created me
& while creation & the simy stays steady duckn me
I'm already on the next step this has already been
& I'm just bending time to remember when
especially when this crown wasn't in no way passed down, stepped on or tilted
jilted, Jaded & jelly beyond imagine
but what wld u know, since I know
life's like a pillow where I whisper u sweet slown soft glimpses of ur deaths
colder than my breath R all the shallow glares from millions of dead kids
after all the centuries thatve been buried deep w in meh
& this indepth peek into the depths of my spirit spits upon all yo man mad souls
that's the Reckoning no man has ever wanted to open & yes
ive taken, been harkened to take hard af treks down the darkest of paths & on the darkest of nights
all just to be unmoved by the ways of man so much so that this gusto can only really be shown in way in which, I tote
a pistol, rifle & microphone
switched & swapped like when I used to use 2 fing tips to give ladies the tip
& tip #1 I'd, I am already dead, this & u arealdy dead & gone
tip 2 it's just best is u reside in tip toeing abt meh
& whereas u wld rely on violence to condone duress, I'm already on the fuckn boom
tip 3 dial f 4 fu, trials and tribulations are written not read
now come on & walk w meh
I'm on a mission no man will understand but grasp
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NotoriousOutlawRecords said:

so just imagine what I will be putting together once I have to push the limits to produce on my own again bc I can't hold out for the co pilot.
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no no man'll ever drop or get the dime, pistol piece or war of peace on me
only locked n loaded for the end of time
I set this to creep up inside all man's minds
just to torture him for the treaturous traps I've endured

nah man this aims hella way moe immaculate u way late, death
has 2 destinations, destiny & fate
& to date there's no grave in which I've previously resided
I'm subsided in the residue of the ultra 808 Aetheric rhythm
gone r the days in which I battled witches wizards lizards & demons
but lingering on the horizon is a whole nother forgotten hell
a nightmare of what was to become heaven
left with in my mind
Just so I can crush all man's minds
which is where I slip in n outa time
bending reality to what I know as known
4 the unknown is all mankind really has left
to protect his glory & legacy
yet as prophecy has shown a light upon thee
I shall smite thee from dusk till dawn
& yawn on as I roar, bellowing my lions mane
refraining from interconnecting w the mainframe
tare assing thru all man's small ass mind fames
who's rah if I'm rawer than gnawing on a saw'd offs trigger
 

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