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what?

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I finally get to

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start the

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paperwork to get

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my grandson

 

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but as reputation proceeds my son in law, it is inevitably that he will fuck up, again & my eldest grandson will come home to me as well.

 

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in 4 yrs of probation (that he calls parole & he's never done more than 24hrs) he still hasn't obtained a ged or license. Responsibility the court has ordered him to obtain, promises he has repeatedly broken not only to the courts but my daughter as well.

 

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as retarded as I am (self diagnosis), I have still never been able to use my retardedness as an excuse.
Every day, day by day, I'm out on the grind, doing sum thing, even if it doesn't bring me money. I have collected every retribution and respect ten fold for 13yrs, just proving to myself that I've never been a failure even tho I've failed at every other avenue of success.

 

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Becoming a father after a decade of working over time, to reverse engineer my life brought me to becoming a grandfather.
I raised Pedro's girls and now they spit on Pedro & his lies that he told them.
There's been nothing that could or would break our bond, not even when I feel I could be, should be a better stepfather bc they aren't technically mine.
And thats when my daughters both tell me, that's horseshit Papi, ur the greatest dad we could ever know.
I may have rough af days in my life but that bc of the financial constrictions that I've had my entire life, but I still get up, put my grind face on & get it.
One day soon as much as I'd rather my grandson's to be with their mother, my daughter, they both just might end up with me.
The safest place they could ever be, an honor I've cherrished and that I've sacrificed countless things and times to behold.
Never tempt or disrespect a fathers/ grandfather's patients.

 

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now whereas I might not be like any other man or father, I have always been true to myself and thats what's kept the wolves away, well for me at least.

 

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I used to drop my eldest off at school with this on full blast in the Malibu

 

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I used to drop my eldest off at school with this on full blast in the Malibu

when u read the lyrics U'll understand. it's not just am emo punk song.

 

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back to back with

 

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and when u all feel like I've done and lost it, what u don't know is, that's when I am fighting the most.
bc living 45yrs with it all in my head, I've still had to make sense of my reality and still trudge along as a normal functional person.
bc I've already this & lost it, before now and in another life.
I may not have lived any other life here on earth but I was living a life in another dimension before my birth and no it wasn't on earth but Nerrelly.

 

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and when u all feel like I've done and lost it, what u don't know is, that's when I am fighting the most.
bc living 45yrs with it all in my head, I've still had to make sense of my reality and still trudge along as a normal functional person.
bc I've already this & lost it, before now and in another life.
I may not have lived any other life here on earth but I was living a life in another dimension before my birth and no it wasn't on earth but Nerrelly.

it's all part of the reason thousands of dead children from earth follow me.

 

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I'll never forget when my eldest called me her space cow boy.

I was about to win ap King
and I was locked out of the other dimensions
bc I took on the mortal roll I always ran from
the last lesson and reminder why I was placed into this position
while watching over Earths dimension, my family macl home in Nerrelly was taken and that's why I was conceived via rape.

 

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as much as I am amped to finally make to what was claimed would never be mine, I still remember the greater mission if this reality fails me, yet once again.
and that's the hardest.
to remember what it is that I'll lose.

 

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so just imagine as a child being told, u will never know family.
remembering a child staring u in the face begging u not to go & not understanding what it meant.
Just to become everything they said u wouldn't &then sum, putting the pieces together as u age.
that's a rage no man of earth will ever understand.
not even in his Wildest imaginations.
when I first heard this, I wss time transported to see what happened back in Nerrelly the night I was conceived.

 

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music has always helped me live/walk thru multiple dimensions.

 

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music has always helped me live/walk thru multiple dimensions.

and I hate kristofferson, 27 Barbra 17.
Basically my dad and mom.

 

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I've had this beat since the day it was released just waiting.

 

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I can not wait patiently enough for when sum 1 says, here's ur space, do what uve always wanted to do, I got u.

 

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so just imagine what I will be putting together once I have to push the limits to produce on my own again bc I can't hold out for the co pilot.

 

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bc yet once again I'm going to have to put my aspirations on hold bc of the responsibilities that I've pledged to uphold.

 

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daily grind type shit

 

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currently nothing to do no where to go no funds or sounds in the trucks but the phone
3 min 2 mile cow town
u have bo idea the measure of restraint that I've hadbti endure

 

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currently nothing to do no where to go no funds or sounds in the trucks but the phone
3 min 2 mile cow town
u have bo idea the measure of restraint that I've hadbti endure

15yrs ago

never had a speaker system after the burban w Stacy, 1993.

 

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I mean this was abt the hardest from the industry besides that 1 c murder & silk the shocker joint

now it's a remnant of a life long forgotten.

 

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so when I drive around this 2min 2mile cow town
the dimensional time shifts R a trip
sober life & the wife?
how wld u know what a man is actually destined to become, if u don't even officially know that man.
or experienced any thing that he has.

 

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now this is life x3
not as Uber slavey but just enough

 

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now the mission is another single property, a Tahoe and a secondary car/suv for lioness so if we get my eldest grandson everything is all set

 

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dinner time