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Apathy of a Killer (What Am I?)
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What is it abt the moment when a man watchs another life be taken?
It's not abt when a man looses his life but when a man takes another life.
It's not abt when a man looses his life but when a man takes another life.
That's the precepous that I crave.
Is it bc I understand how & how long man has squandered the power that was given to man?
Or bc man doesn't deserve the power given?
What is that power that I am so pressed abt?
The power to live. Life it self.
Why has man just left himself to be enslaved, even after being given a manuscript on how not only to obtain the full ultimatum of this power but to excell it?
Why do alpha dogs expect a pat on the back for being so convexed?
When I see alpha dogs flexing their pecks, I think abt why mankind went from the animal kingdom to mental enslavement.
Humans were given such a power that they were supposed to be able to traverse all realms and kingdoms, yet man can barely tread the shit the call their lives.
Man has an insatiable lust for nothing, as historically repeated, as per the current narratives of the past.
Which hinders the present from ever eloping into the next stage of humanities reign.
And how is man support to reign, on man over another from the bottom to the top or...
Evolving the reasoning for maturing into using the very thing that elevated man from animal to human, tools.
And if we are not animals, why does all man have some kind of vendetta with rage, vengeance and violence?
Which is where the look hits, Death.
What man should be given the right to a power meant to elude death?
So as where we have oposable thumbs, we still cannot oppose tyrany, no matter how evolved man has become.
In my mind bc I can not explore this world and realm as it is taught as to be intended, I shuck the mortal coil and question why man exists if his persistent need for the coddling of conditioned safety outweighs the atoms of his blood, what is the point (& not what I'm talking abt, I mean the actual point)?
Is it there in that moment of death I know man's reckoning is the greatest, the strongest?
How many alphas claim to have a baring of what he is meant to be and yet wakes up just to slave away yet again another day?
& then when I bring it up, alpha alarm bells go off as if I just sounded the 7 seals.
& very few men have really calculated what the 7 seals really are.
The 7 seals are what was used to create man, blood being a key component.
Hence vampires drinking blood. Further hence red mercury supposedly being ancients blood.
Blood, the conductor within the elixir known as life & mine boils bc, this is what life is.
This is what man has worked so hard for, ahit to show for what man is supposed to be by now in the game of evolution.
Was man really condemned (doomed) to just be primal creatures and not actually celestial?
Cuz here & now as of today, no man wants more than the comfortabilities afforded to him for his man given freedoms.
That gnawing at the edges of my mind of what man doesn't deserve, that precious life's blood.
Why shld man be continued to be allowed the greatest gift God gave man, if man can not fuel himself by that very same power to actually discover what man is supposed be?
So truthfully, as awfully gruesome to know abt me, is whether I'm a sociopath or psychopath.
But u shld know that I don't think of murder or death as in which man does.
I see those 2 moments as math tools in equating that man is & isn't.
And he, man, isn't worth the breath he breaths, since all man's lives are lived at the very duress all their prophets and scriptures or religious texts forbid.
Truth can't actually be obtained within this realm, truth is however only given from beyond our reality.
And truth is, what man actually deserves to breath if he's still gulping for air within in the mental chains he lives and breathes by?
I just think the earth cld use man's blood more than man cld ever uses his own blood.
Is it bc I understand how & how long man has squandered the power that was given to man?
Or bc man doesn't deserve the power given?
What is that power that I am so pressed abt?
The power to live. Life it self.
Why has man just left himself to be enslaved, even after being given a manuscript on how not only to obtain the full ultimatum of this power but to excell it?
Why do alpha dogs expect a pat on the back for being so convexed?
When I see alpha dogs flexing their pecks, I think abt why mankind went from the animal kingdom to mental enslavement.
Humans were given such a power that they were supposed to be able to traverse all realms and kingdoms, yet man can barely tread the shit the call their lives.
Man has an insatiable lust for nothing, as historically repeated, as per the current narratives of the past.
Which hinders the present from ever eloping into the next stage of humanities reign.
And how is man support to reign, on man over another from the bottom to the top or...
Evolving the reasoning for maturing into using the very thing that elevated man from animal to human, tools.
And if we are not animals, why does all man have some kind of vendetta with rage, vengeance and violence?
Which is where the look hits, Death.
What man should be given the right to a power meant to elude death?
So as where we have oposable thumbs, we still cannot oppose tyrany, no matter how evolved man has become.
In my mind bc I can not explore this world and realm as it is taught as to be intended, I shuck the mortal coil and question why man exists if his persistent need for the coddling of conditioned safety outweighs the atoms of his blood, what is the point (& not what I'm talking abt, I mean the actual point)
?Is it there in that moment of death I know man's reckoning is the greatest, the strongest?
How many alphas claim to have a baring of what he is meant to be and yet wakes up just to slave away yet again another day?
& then when I bring it up, alpha alarm bells go off as if I just sounded the 7 seals.
& very few men have really calculated what the 7 seals really are.
The 7 seals are what was used to create man, blood being a key component.
Hence vampires drinking blood. Further hence red mercury supposedly being ancients blood.
Blood, the conductor within the elixir known as life & mine boils bc, this is what life is.
This is what man has worked so hard for, ahit to show for what man is supposed to be by now in the game of evolution.
Was man really condemned (doomed) to just be primal creatures and not actually celestial?
Cuz here & now as of today, no man wants more than the comfortabilities afforded to him for his man given freedoms.
That gnawing at the edges of my mind of what man doesn't deserve, that precious life's blood.
Why shld man be continued to be allowed the greatest gift God gave man, if man can not fuel himself by that very same power to actually discover what man is supposed be?
So truthfully, as awfully gruesome to know abt me, is whether I'm a sociopath or psychopath.
But u shld know that I don't think of murder or death as in which man does.
I see those 2 moments as math tools in equating that man is & isn't.
And he, man, isn't worth the breath he breaths, since all man's lives are lived at the very duress all their prophets and scriptures or religious texts forbid.
Truth can't actually be obtained within this realm, truth is however only given from beyond our reality.
And truth is, what man actually deserves to breath if he's still gulping for air within in the mental chains he lives and breathes by?
I just think the earth cld use man's blood more than man cld ever uses his own blood.
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oh shit
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Lol, yes/no responses are pretty useless overall. Should maybe try instructing it to generate more elaborate answers to provide expanded hypotheticals based upon the presented query inputs.
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Thread 'Meet @TherealNoRecs' https://thefreespeechforum.com/threads/meet-therealnorecs.25656/
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more soundtrack thoughts, inner monolog.
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Just a thought
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When abt
abt
Its not actually abt the moment a man dies but the moment after, when he reenters the unknown.
Thats the spot, the moment.
The look on a dying man's face is what ge actually sees on the otherside.
Bc that's when man realizes that the world he just left doesn't actually mean shit to the otherside that he's just reentered.
As I have said many times b4, when I listen to others music, videos or just vocals, I actually hear what they are really saying.
Sum times it's a transfusion of multiple dimensions converging just so I can double sum times triple decode what I am actually hearing and is being said.
And it gives me an extra advantage when "reading in between the lines" of what a man is saying when he says things in black and white text.
So where ass I am actually trapped within this dimension, I'm quite literally still living in a completely different dimension and all bc if what I know abt this particular dimension, the false reality.
Which is where I know that there is no evil that quells the insatiable desire for the otherside, another dimension.
I don't see violence in human terms bc I have explicitly watch my conception into the false realities realm.
And when I mentally put on ee199 by bt&h, it's not abt what they are saying up front or subliminally, it's abt when I used to stick men up at atms.
So just imagine a 4 ft 5 snub nose kid run up.
And all bc I understood money was a scam just by watching adults fight over who got custody.
It was like each time I got that fear to show, I was regaining portions of the innocence that had been and continued to be stolen from me.
I can't even begin to explain how many concussions I gave kids in 4 man bunks in juvenile detention.
And I'll never forget my first concussion.
Big kid too.
I thot that high was higher than fuckn broads twice my age.
I learned to lean into "bear hugs" by big guys.
Ever thumpt a temple hard enough to drop a man?
That moment.
Bc I know man's blood is worth more to the earth than man himself.
I don't think abt torturing man like sum psycho either.
I think when a man dies he shldnt be afforded any lingering mantle pieces.
His mortal coil shld be Severed immediately, if man is not going to be what God intended him to be.
Which is to be fully capable of traversing any and all constructs of the universe.
Which is why I believe all man shld perish.
And perish he will, just so Freewill can finally reign as it was originally intended.
Thats the spot, the moment.
The look on a dying man's face is what ge actually sees on the otherside.
Bc that's when man realizes that the world he just left doesn't actually mean shit to the otherside that he's just reentered.
As I have said many times b4, when I listen to others music, videos or just vocals, I actually hear what they are really saying.
Sum times it's a transfusion of multiple dimensions converging just so I can double sum times triple decode what I am actually hearing and is being said.
And it gives me an extra advantage when "reading in between the lines" of what a man is saying when he says things in black and white text.
So where ass I am actually trapped within this dimension, I'm quite literally still living in a completely different dimension and all bc if what I know abt this particular dimension, the false reality.
Which is where I know that there is no evil that quells the insatiable desire for the otherside, another dimension.
I don't see violence in human terms bc I have explicitly watch my conception into the false realities realm.
And when I mentally put on ee199 by bt&h, it's not abt what they are saying up front or subliminally, it's abt when I used to stick men up at atms.
So just imagine a 4 ft 5 snub nose kid run up.
And all bc I understood money was a scam just by watching adults fight over who got custody.
It was like each time I got that fear to show, I was regaining portions of the innocence that had been and continued to be stolen from me.
I can't even begin to explain how many concussions I gave kids in 4 man bunks in juvenile detention.
And I'll never forget my first concussion.
Big kid too.
I thot that high was higher than fuckn broads twice my age.
I learned to lean into "bear hugs" by big guys.
Ever thumpt a temple hard enough to drop a man?
That moment.
Bc I know man's blood is worth more to the earth than man himself.
I don't think abt torturing man like sum psycho either.
I think when a man dies he shldnt be afforded any lingering mantle pieces.
His mortal coil shld be Severed immediately, if man is not going to be what God intended him to be.
Which is to be fully capable of traversing any and all constructs of the universe.
Which is why I believe all man shld perish.
And perish he will, just so Freewill can finally reign as it was originally intended.
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I tested out
b4 I was even in school.
and ever since the seemstresses have been looking for DNA similar to mine.
Bc if the knowledge I know.
Like that moment.
The high I also tested all the way up until I took a baseball bat to the back of my head.
A Gen X wb who ran with crip kings.
And those days aren't as haunting as the years just b4.
I'm more tortured knowing what happened to turn me against not only the system but man himself.
When I spent those 2 weeks in a coma, I learned my truest nature, man's nature.
And it's not what I was abt to live out, out live.
It's historically said repeatedly that it always takes 1 man and bc 1 man is all was 1st given the next casted man has to be willing to forego everything he has ever known to get to the next level, course or evolution.
And we have 2 paths, the elites noose or our own path in the unknown.
Man claims to be fearless, yet only if the seemstresses allow so & thats pretty much over now isn't it.
So what is fearless? Claiming to be as long as safety and comfortabilities are afforded?
I'm just not geared like that.
I'm destined to push not only the limits but the distances and hinderences that keeps man from going and becoming who he's truly meant to be.
And I just don't believe it's to be, enslaved.
Bc he is no matter which way any 1 looks at it either.
and ever since the seemstresses have been looking for DNA similar to mine.
Bc if the knowledge I know.
Like that moment.
The high I also tested all the way up until I took a baseball bat to the back of my head.
A Gen X wb who ran with crip kings.
And those days aren't as haunting as the years just b4.
I'm more tortured knowing what happened to turn me against not only the system but man himself.
When I spent those 2 weeks in a coma, I learned my truest nature, man's nature.
And it's not what I was abt to live out, out live.
It's historically said repeatedly that it always takes 1 man and bc 1 man is all was 1st given the next casted man has to be willing to forego everything he has ever known to get to the next level, course or evolution.
And we have 2 paths, the elites noose or our own path in the unknown.
Man claims to be fearless, yet only if the seemstresses allow so & thats pretty much over now isn't it.
So what is fearless? Claiming to be as long as safety and comfortabilities are afforded?
I'm just not geared like that.
I'm destined to push not only the limits but the distances and hinderences that keeps man from going and becoming who he's truly meant to be.
And I just don't believe it's to be, enslaved.
Bc he is no matter which way any 1 looks at it either.
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