Anyone live with bipolar disorder on here?

[Chris Farley]

Just webmd’ed it and cot dang if that’s not me…things starting to make a lot of sense now…..fuck

 

[shiv]

Def don’t try and diagnose yourself with webmd (obviously), but I definitely struggle with depression and have mania bounce backs at time. Never been diagnosed as bipolar, but I am diagnosed with depression. In my experience, talking to a doctor, trying a few meds and finding one that is right for me has been life changing

 

[IrishStout]

I would not trust a diagnosis from webMD in place of one from a certified mental health professional.

edit: I’ve been diagnosed with depression many times over the years. Unfortunately it’s something that runs in the family. I can get off of my meds for periods of time but I’ve always had to go back to them. Ive been off for a few years but with all of the BS I’ve been dealing with lately it’s probably time to jump back on. They make me feel better, more productive etc… but I haven’t been able to find one that doesn’t fuck with my dick/libido.

 

[Cre8ive]

Def don’t try and diagnose yourself with webmd (obviously), but I definitely struggle with depression and have mania bounce backs at time. Never been diagnosed as bipolar, but I am diagnosed with depression. In my experience, talking to a doctor, trying a few meds and finding one that is right for me has been life changing

I agree with croot overlord - if you go to the internet for a diagnosis you will find that you have all of the diseases in the world, including PTSD.

 

[JordanPetersHorn]

I would not trust a diagnosis from webMD in place of one from a certified mental health professional.

edit: I’ve been diagnosed with depression many times over the years. Unfortunately it’s something that runs in the family. I can get off of my meds for periods of time but I’ve always had to go back to them. Ive been off for a few years but with all of the BS I’ve been dealing with lately it’s probably time to jump back on. They make me feel better, more productive etc… but I haven’t been able to find one that doesn’t fuck with my dick/libido.

Trintellix is the key. Only one of the Anti depressants that’s weight neutral and no dick problems

Is it really depression if it’s cultural? Asking for a fellow irishman(me)

 

[JordanPetersHorn]

Just webmd’ed it and cot dang if that’s not me…things starting to make a lot of sense now…..fuck

Diagnosed BP checking in

Go to an actual psychiatrist and get diagnosed

REMEMBER. This is not about fixing you or figuring out your identity or finding the root of all your problems. You’re way better off treating it purely medically. Describe your symptoms, and possibly pursue behavioral therapy if necessary to fix whatever specific symptoms you have and trying to feel better

Not trying to preach I just get worried when people say “that explains a lot.” It actually doesn’t. You’re a unique person with a long and complicated life history and it’s time to acknowledge if there’s anything specific that’s making you feel worse. Chasing mental health diagnoses to find answers leads nowhere, coming from experience

 

[Cre8ive]

Trintellix is the key. Only one of the Anti depressants that’s weight neutral and no dick problems

I hear you. Depression is too real. the darkest days of my life came upon me like a phantom from hell. I took my glock out of my wardrobe and put it in the basement. I knew that would give me enough time to consider all the reasons I should not blow my brains out. I'm with you.

 

[JordanPetersHorn]

I hear you. Depression is too real. the darkest days of my life came upon me like a phantom from hell. I took my glock out of my wardrobe and put it in the basement. I knew that would give me enough time to consider all the reasons I should not blow my brains out. I'm with you.

Been there as well, it’s why I’ll never own a gun unfortunately.

Ive tried just about everything meds wise from antipsychotics all the way down to xanx and all that. Would get relief in spurts, but The only thing that ever helped me is behavioral therapy and abandoning hope that true fulfillment comes from medication and therapy. It’s from hobbies and things that sustain happiness

 

[IrishStout]

Trintellix is the key. Only one of the Anti depressants that’s weight neutral and no dick problems

Is it really depression if it’s cultural? Asking for a fellow irishman(me)

“This is one race of people for whom psychoanalysis is of no use whatsoever.” - Sigmund Freud

Given my history with therapists there might be some truth to this. Heh.

Thanks for the rec. I’ll definitely look into this.

 

[JordanPetersHorn]

“This is one race of people for whom psychoanalysis is of no use whatsoever.” - Sigmund Freud

Given my history with therapists there might be some truth to this. Heh.

Thanks for the rec. I’ll definitely look into this.

Same here. Called an online therapy place(love to pivot.com) once to try out the therapy angle again and I wrote out my whole medical history to them and they send me over to the CEO himself (mainly because of how sick I was with intake appointments and false promises) and after 45 minutes we concluded it wouldn’t be productive if I pursued therapy with them

After a while they become robots and just recite CBT and DBT dictates. Also no real men go into the field so they have all this misinformation about how to solve male issues. Sometimes we as men need a swift kick in the ass and that’s missing from all therapy

 

[tiderollsonu]

No but I have multiple personalities, or so my Ex Wife tells me

 

[JordanPetersHorn]

No but I have multiple personalities, or so my Ex Wife tells me

Your personality when you were happy with the marraige and the other personality where you hated her guts

Total wife move to frame it like that instead of honestly asking what the matter is

 

[Zgdaf]

Def don’t try and diagnose yourself with webmd (obviously), but I definitely struggle with depression and have mania bounce backs at time. Never been diagnosed as bipolar, but I am diagnosed with depression. In my experience, talking to a doctor, trying a few meds and finding one that is right for me has been life changing

Similar to me.. but everyone is different. Best thing I ever did was to ween myself off the so called non addictive antidepressants. I have done different types of self help, and every day is a challenge. Lately my go to has been MBSR (meditation based stress reduction) mixed in with different Buddhist meditation and self awareness.
everyone has to find their own path.. I’m really wanting to try either mdma, shrooms, or lsd microdosing sessions run by a qualified guide for a different experience.
Hope you figure it out.

 

[JordanPetersHorn]

Similar to me.. but everyone is different. Best thing I ever did was to ween myself off the so called non addictive antidepressants. I have done different types of self help, and every day is a challenge. Lately my go to has been MBSR (meditation based stress reduction) mixed in with different Buddhist meditation and self awareness.
everyone has to find their own path.. I’m really wanting to try either mdma, shrooms, or lsd microdosing sessions run by a qualified guide for a different experience.
Hope you figure it out.

Do Shrooms. MDMA is an awful comedown unless they give you Xanax or something which makes it worse

Shrooms help you find shit hiding right below the surface

 

[tiderollsonu]

Do Shrooms. MDMA is an awful comedown unless they give you Xanax or something which makes it worse

Shrooms help you find shit hiding right below the surface

The bad trips are the ones I have the fondest memories of

 

[JordanPetersHorn]

The bad trips are the ones I have the fondest memories of

Did you do a trip while you were married and that’s what made you seek true happiness?

If so we need to add it to the TFSF “positive drug experiences” collection

 

[Chris Farley]

Similar to me.. but everyone is different. Best thing I ever did was to ween myself off the so called non addictive antidepressants. I have done different types of self help, and every day is a challenge. Lately my go to has been MBSR (meditation based stress reduction) mixed in with different Buddhist meditation and self awareness.
everyone has to find their own path.. I’m really wanting to try either mdma, shrooms, or lsd microdosing sessions run by a qualified guide for a different experience.
Hope you figure it out.

I did ketamine microdosing sessions a couple years ago. It helped a little

 

[Jtrain80]

I did ketamine microdosing sessions a couple years ago. It helped a little

I am a dumb ass wrestler w 2 moves when the shit hits the fan. Eat vitamins and exercise. Both have helped over the years.

 

[ChicagoFats]

I am a dumb ass wrestler w 2 moves when the shit hits the fan. Eat vitamins and exercise. Both have helped over the years.

Exercise is my go to also. When I’m really stressed I’ll just try and literally run myself down. Usually puts me in a better frame of mind and makes me feel like I accomplished something.

Everybody is different though, gotta find what works for you.

 

[Jtrain80]

Exercise is my go to also. When I’m really stressed I’ll just try and literally run myself down. Usually puts me in a better frame of mind and makes me feel like I accomplished something.

Everybody is different though, gotta find what works for you.

Agree.

Wife has some crazy pills that are required!!!

 

[America 1st]

Hope you feel better Chris.

 

[GarnetPild]

A friend in college was bipolar. He was more or less normal on his meds, but he hated them because they muted his emotions so much. We went to the Bahamas one spring break, and he intentionally left his medication back in Columbia. We didn't find out until we were already there, but within a few days he was an entirely different person, and scary to be around. His highs were just as frightening as his lows.

I personally have had a bit of depression over the years. Mostly after my brother died, but talking to someone as well as getting a prescription helped alot. My brother also had had a bit of depression a few years earlier, and we actually ended up having success with the same drug. I was just on it for a couple years, but it helped me out of a bad place.

Definitely find a professional to talk to, man. Definitely don't be too proud to get help...there is alot of it out there these days.

 

[TJHall1]

I'm so fucked I dunno where I am.

 

[tiderollsonu]

Did you do a trip while you were married and that’s what made you seek true happiness?

If so we need to add it to the TFSF “positive drug experiences” collection

Haha our first anniversary we went to a rave in Atlanta with DJ Irene and special guest star Digital Underground. Was early 2000's and think I ate 5 rolls and two hits of acid dropped on pez candy.

 

[hmt5000]

Do you not have bourbon and mushrooms?

 

[Jtrain80]

Do you not have bourbon and mushrooms?

DO NOT RECOMMEND MUSHROOMS UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE.

 

[JordanPetersHorn]

I'm so fucked I dunno where I am.

You’re not a got damn communist eating one bowl of rice a day at least. Hang in there potna

 

[America 1st]

I'm so fucked I dunno where I am.

Stop doing this to yoreself.

Also

Have you fixed the out bulb yet?

 

[TJHall1]

Stop doing this to yoreself.

Also

Have you fixed the out bulb yet?

I think that bulbs been out for 2 years and still is.

 

[Chris Farley]

DO NOT RECOMMEND MUSHROOMS UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE.

 

[shiv]

I’ve had shrooms snap me out of depression for months a couple times in life.

However I’m drug free way to be now

 

[Rebarcock.]

Hang in there chris. I battle BP but I refuse to do longterm scripts. Shrooms help get me out of a funk several times. As males get older we get more isolated. That is a big factor. Try and get out. Go to a water park or rent a boat and do some fun things. Stepping away from the internet to decompress is big too. Holler if you need to get shit off your chest or need to bitch. I know you've been through a ton and I suspect you may need to verbalize the ahit you saw to get past it. I know talking to a shrink helped me after some bad shit went down. Good luck.

 

[Rusty Student]

Micro dosing shrooms will set you free

 

[AgEngDawg]

Def don’t try and diagnose yourself with webmd (obviously), but I definitely struggle with depression and have mania bounce backs at time. Never been diagnosed as bipolar, but I am diagnosed with depression. In my experience, talking to a doctor, trying a few meds and finding one that is right for me has been life changing

This!!!! It is terrible path. I went down the rabbit hole thinking I had TWO terrible diseases and lost months to depression.

My General Practitioner told me to knock it off!!!

At one point I was so depressed thinking I had one of these diseases I spent the every moment I could in bed trying to sleep to get away from the anxiety.

I was convinced I was dying!!!

Spoiler alert - I am not dying!!! Just a lame hypochondriac.

Also, I got better at one point, but then I decided to binge watch "ER" on Hulu. Was triggered again!!!! Don't watch that show if you are a hypochondriac!!! Don't go down that rabbit hole.

I also learned that they do not call it being a hypochondriac anymore. It is called "health anxiety". Isn't that nice!!!

 

[TheGratefulReb]

All you folks recommending microdosing anything have raisins for testicles. You need a breakthrough dose to really get some perspective.

I don't have the answer for you Chris, I go through funks every now and then. Dad was diagnosed BP, I haven't ever been seen for anything except situational depression. Was put on some anti-depressants after my brother died, but at 25 I was not cool at all with erectile dysfunction. Helped me crawl out the bed to face the day, but when the dingaling wasn't working well......I knew it was time to get off that shit. They helped me not be a babbling mess, but my emotions were so flat that I equally couldn't be happy/laughing or sad/crying. There's beauty in life experiencing the entire spectrum. There are just good days and then there are bad days for me, its life. A rollercoaster.

I do "clear the pipes" about twice a year now with a nice dose of LSD, eating about two hits of some good paper each time. I think it helps out with anxiety a good bit by actually stressing my brain to the max during the come up/peak, so then afterwards for a while I don't get so stressed out in daily life because I kinda worked out all that anxiety during the trip. After the peak, its all fun and games. I love laughing, its good for the soul.

 

[IrishStout]

DO NOT RECOMMEND MUSHROOMS UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE.

I’m genuinely interested in why you’re so emphatic about this.

 

[AmericanViking]

Just webmd’ed it and cot dang if that’s not me…things starting to make a lot of sense now…..fuck

Have you been evaluated for PTSD and told the truth rather than saying all the right things to avoid it?

 

[Chris Farley]

Have you been evaluated for PTSD and told the truth rather than saying all the right things to avoid it?

Yes severe ptsd, major depressive order, and anxiety

 

[AmericanViking]

Yes severe ptsd, major depressive order, and anxiety

Damn, I freaking hate that for you brother.

 

[Jtrain80]

I’m genuinely interested in why you’re so emphatic about this.

I cannot believe all the posters discussing it as helpful.

I must of ate too much, because it was the worst thing ever. It looked like when Neo came out the Matrix the first time and started yakking everywhere. Never want to throw up from anxiety again.

Scariest thing was I forgot who I was.